My Arms Have Held...
Be Your Own Beloved ~ Day 5
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| I have been blessed to cradle four babies in my arms...2 girls and 2 boys, but this challenge has me thinking about the baby girl I could not hold. Her name would have been Robyn had she not been born sleeping. In all the commotion of a premature birth and focus on her surviving twin brother, somehow my grief and mourning was lost in the fight for life. People said, "Well, at least you have one baby." It was as if her birth and death existed only in a bad dream and when I awoke, no one knew of the second child. I didn't think of her again...or not very often anyway. It's only been in the past few years, through the help of a Flickr friend, that I have been able to acknowledge her unfulfilled life and celebrate her and her twin brother on their birthday. |
I don't know what to say - I can't even imagine the sorrow of losing a child. And the difficulties of losing a child at the same time as gaining a child - such extremes of joy and despair, all at the same time. I am glad that you have been able to remember and celebrate your Robyn.
ReplyDeleteMy daughter lost twin boys three years ago. They lived just an hour. It was devastating, and we all have been forever changed by the event. The birth of her nearly two-year old has been a wonderful blessing, but they will never forget the two they lost.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear this, but happy your daughter has a child now to love and cherish. And happy for you too! It's an interesting feeling...losing babies we never really knew. Somehow, just carrying them inside us until their birth, we are connected for eternity and their spiritual presence is with us always...and we miss them. Take care!
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