Be Your Own Beloved
For the one or two of you who read this blog, I must tell you my reasons for not completing the Be Your Own Beloved online class and taking of self-portraits before I can move on and add other images to my blog.
I found the class to be too "silly" for me to participate. I'm afraid I am a perfectionist and want to be viewed in a perfect light, so when the assignments began to be about making faces into the camera...I was out. The risk of seeing my aging face in many contorted attempts to complete the prescribed task caused me more grief than I dared put myself through.
I am not proud of my vanity or my perfectionism as it certainly gets in the way of living a fulfilled creative life. I am blocked by it. There is something inside of me trying to be expressed, but my wall of perfectionism is tall and wide and I can't seem to get over it.
So, I'll move along now adding images that are not perfect of course, but have some meaning to me...images and words for my family and friends.
In good spirit,
Suzette
I found the class to be too "silly" for me to participate. I'm afraid I am a perfectionist and want to be viewed in a perfect light, so when the assignments began to be about making faces into the camera...I was out. The risk of seeing my aging face in many contorted attempts to complete the prescribed task caused me more grief than I dared put myself through.
I am not proud of my vanity or my perfectionism as it certainly gets in the way of living a fulfilled creative life. I am blocked by it. There is something inside of me trying to be expressed, but my wall of perfectionism is tall and wide and I can't seem to get over it.
So, I'll move along now adding images that are not perfect of course, but have some meaning to me...images and words for my family and friends.
In good spirit,
Suzette
Oh, I completely, completely understand - I have yet to share myself in any significant way through self-portraits for the very same reasons - vanity and perfectionism. And I can't imagine anything worse than making faces for the camera to record. I applaud your attempt to give it a try and to recognize when it became painful rather than a learning experience. Looking forward to what comes next.
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